First glimpse of the Alien Bitch

Well we had a small preview of my insanity or what I refer to as my Alien counterpart! I made dinner Sunday night for my husband and my 4 year old child. I a made a simple dinner of chicken with a mushroom sauce over a bed of egg noodles. Sounds normal so far? Sure it would have been if 10 more people were to show up. I cooked 6lbs of chicken for 2 adults and a toddler. I probably slapped a pound and a half of chicken on my husbands plate alone. When he sat down to eat he looked across the table at me and gave me this look that said "have you gone crazy"? Of course my reaction "I AM NOT CRAZY"! Ok I honestly believed what I had done was perfectly normal and actually smart.

OK, so maybe I did go a little insane. Of course at the time my husband tried to reason with me or listen to me reasoning for why we had so much chicken on the table. I love my husband and right now he is a patient man. He was able to awaken me from my insanity and bring me back to rationality. Or knock out that crazy Alien Bitch and bring me back to reality.

Here is when it hit me, with 6lbs of cooked chicken in front of me! "What the hell did I do! OH MY GOD what was I thinking, 6lbs of chicken"? It was all half breast I only needed to to cook 2 and that would have been plenty. I basically cooked 3 whole chickens. WOW! I admit I was shocked. No Wait I was actually astonished. How could I cook so much?

So this was the first glimpse of my insanity. I like to think of it as an alien taking over my body. This crazy bitch will be back. She will try to work her way in and when I least suspect it. I am trying to stay on my game and I feel pretty good that she hasn't completely taken over yet. That also scares me at the same time because she will get in and she will come in with a vengeance!

Let me step back a little

My first pregnancy I thought I was in complete control and I thought I was doing everything right to stay "normal". Well my husband opened up to me after the baby was born and told me I was totally insane. I thought he was crazy. How could he say anything like that how absurd. I did everything by the book I exercised, I ate right, I was up to date on every pregnancy website I could be on getting updates on what was going on with my body and how my baby was developing. Little did I ever realize that I had completely left my body and was taken over by an alien being that looked like me but did not act at all like me.

This pregnancy I made a promise to my husband that I would try my best not to go insane again and that I would stay focused and not allow my body to be taken over by that crazy alien bitch! Well we both know it's a padded promise. We both know that one day, I can't say when, but of course when I least suspect it SNATCH I will be gone. I would love to think that I will travel off to a white sandy beach where I will relax in the sun and drink pinacoladas under a large cabana. Truth is I will be trapped in a cold place between reality and deep space. While my body and my life will be taken over and screwed with. This alien will say and do things that I could never imagine and I will deni when I finally I do make the return back to my body. Key phrase at this point, they are all crazy "they" don't understand what it is like to be pregnant and make a baby! I'm not the crazy one......sure you'll tell yourself that too!

Welcome to insanity oh I mean the beautiful world of pregnancy! LOL.

Do you ever wonder what really happens to you when you get pregnant. I don't mean what happens to your body and what kind of food you will crave. I mean deeply what happens to you brain and your sanity! You will find thousands of books and websites about what happens to your body and lots of information about how the baby developes. But do you ever stop and wonder what isn't being told? Do you wonder if there are things that will happen that people don't talk about?

When I was pregnant with my first child I asked all my friends who had been pregnant to tell me everything I needed to know that I wouldn't find in books. Some opened up and some just said they didn't remember. I continued to pester my girlfriends to think back and tell me the things that they were to embarrassed to tell. Again I got blank stares. OK, so maybe this is the beginning of insanity for me. No, now I know better! They all had gone insane during their pregnancy and of course they didn't remember anything. The blank stare, were stares you get from people who talk about being ubducted that are to afraid to talk about it.

So here it is I am going to open up and share with you what really happens when your pregnant. I am now 10 weeks pregnant with my second child and have a lot to share...or...warn. I am hoping that before I enter the stage of complete insanity that I will be able to clearly communicate and get the truth to you. Again I am writing this as I am pregnant so sanity may not prevail.